Sometimes I just can't sleep

I'm no stranger to insomnia. I've dealt with it all my life. I've done meds, teas, calming techniques, and still have nights where I struggle to fall asleep. Currently, I take benedryl and meletonin nightly and sometimes can't sleep even with those.

Tonight is a prime example of my pesky insomnia. It's not my friend. Insomnia strikes at a good time though since the Olympics is on as is a rerun of Criminal Minds and Numb3rs. :)

Some nights I fall asleep fine and others I struggle.

There are times I just lay here and I will eventually fall asleep but there's no rhyme or reason why I can't sleep tonight.

So much for those eight hours of sleep I need. I'll admit it, I need eight plus hours a night. If not, I need lots of caffeine.

Insomnia is not my friend

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Special Needs, Ryan Gosling style

It's a party over here. Sunday at Extreme Parenthood created this fantastic meme all from the Special Needs parents/educators/population. It's about awareness through laughter and connections. Want to see more Special Needs, Ryan Gosling style posts? Click on the blog button below.

Now hush and...

go to Sleep!!!

When the rest of the family, besides me, is away. Our doberman, Paws, likes to whine, bark, pace, and mumble throughout the night. She is as sweet as can be BUT she does like to cause trouble at night.

On Sunday night, I was up until almost 2am with a barking dog. Last night, I was woken up, from a deep sleep, at 1:11am to the darn dog moaning and whining and barking. I trudged downstairs to see her just looking at me like as if she could say what did I do? Then at 2am, she jumped on my bed. She went through the gate and just hopped right up there. Paws is NOT allowed on the bed because she sheds and I am allergic to her hair.

It's a good thing she's cute because she would be in the dog house if she was not. Ugh..can you say tired?!?!

How'd you sleep last night???

Take a number

Did you get my email? Did you get those dates for me? Did you write that article I asked for? Can you send out an email? This assignment is due by tomorrow evening. I need those donations by next Friday!!! Have a good afternoon and remember your project is due tomorrow at midnight!!!

AHHHHH...people need to learn that I am only ONE person!!! What a concept. Seriously though...I want and NEED time to just chill and not have to worry about what is do when and how much stuff I have to get done. I want one weekend or break without homework or "important" phone calls and/or emails. I want to blog and catch up on others. Plus I would also like some time to edit the picts I have from Spring Break.

Is this too much to ask?! I don't think so. The IRL world needs to understand that I am only one person and can't do it all even if I tried!!

I'm back & thank you

HOLY MOLY batman! This past week almost took the best out of me. Between our school newspaper getting scammed to my truck and all its insurance drama to little sleep and much stress...I think I survived!

First of all...THANK YOU for your prayers and good vibes sent my way. I really appreciated it! I also needed them. So...THANK YOU!!!

I just, today, finished a 28 page unit for third graders. For a class, I have to teach for four days. My topic is on early colonization of America. We will discuss Native Americans, Explorers, and Pilgrims. I am literally relieved that this darn unit is done. Sitting in front of the computer screen for hours is not my cup of tea and looking at the same darn document for a week is not that fun. But it is mostly over and now comes the fun part...eek!

Short story-my newspaper got a call saying that a company, who had done a full page ad in our paper, was hacked into and the company's credit card was stolen. SO we are now working with the FBI and the company and our newspaper to get everything straightened out. This hit the fan on Wednesday evening.

My truck drama-The insurance companies are now involved and we are going back and forth with communication. That is a whole hassle and blessing in itself.

Stress & Little sleep-I promise you that I will get much more sleep this week. I got all worked up with this 28 page assignment and it took, literally, everything out of me. Since it is now done, I may be more pleasant this week.

Need good thoughts today

Short story: I have slept three hours in 48. I need some good thoughts sent today. I am way too stressed and have way too much due today. Sending GOOD thoughts is the best way I am going to get through this day. I will eventually get some sleep...but now...I have to get everything done.

Dear Mr. Sandman

Dear Mr. Sandman,
I don't know if I was missed on your list or what but PLEASE let me go to sleep at a decent NOT 2 am time and wake up ready to start the day. These late nights are really starting to tick me off and my sweet upbeat self need to get back into the swing of things. The weekends are one thing...but during the week I need my beauty sleep. These LATE nights are REALLY getting to me and I would love my regular sleeping schedule back...now!

Your tired friend,

Finally the weekend...

This past week has been exhausting, fun, adventurous, exciting, and non-stop ALL week long. VBS during the AM & PM sessions was FABULOUS and pictures will come soon. But right now, I am resting w/a sinus infection plus an ear infection times two. So I will catch up with all your posts soon. Right now, I am enjoying the weekend OFF and I hope you do too. Have a great weekend to your family and you!

Prayers needed & a heck of a day

LONG post ahead...you have been warned!

This morning at 3:30....the phone rings. Now when someone calls you that early a few ideas run through your mind. Something bad has happened, someone has died, or there was an accident. Well it was the first one, even though we all thought someone had died. My grandmother slipped and fell on her right hip. The ambulance showed up at my grandparents home at 3:40am to take her to the hospital. My grandpa rode along.

At 6:30, we get another call. Apparently my grandparents had called a few people and not called them back. So it was one of our good friends checking in and driving to the hospital to check on Grandma and Popsie. Around this time, my dad starts packing his bag to head to Houston. Then the phone rings again at 7:30...grandparents are in the ER and friend is with them. Dad leaves for Houston shortly after.

Several times throughout the day, we have been updated by either mom calling dad or vice versa. It has been one of those phone ringing off the hook days.

At 11ish, Grandma is taken into surgery and when I call dad at 12:30, she was still in surgery. I am not for sure how long the surgery lasted but I do know that Grandma woke up in a BUNCH of pain and they could not give her anything until the anesthesia wore off. Grandma had a total right hip replacement after breaking her hip. They were going to do screws, but decided not too.

My dad sent the cousins and friends home after Grandma woke up b/c she was a little out of it and needed to rest. Please pray for my family and my grandparents as they go through this upset right now. Grandma is supposed to be in the hospital till Saturday and then do 2 months of therapy...tentatively.

Here's the kicker: My brother and dad are headed out of town on Saturday night to head to the Boy Scout camp in New Mexico. They don't return until next Saturday or Sunday. OH DEAR! My brother is supposed to be packed by tomorrow evening for Boy Scout inspection, so mom, sister, and I are working on the packing part for both brother and dad. My mom is on stand-by in case she needs to go help my grandparents as well.

Thank you in advanced for your prayers!!!!

NOT ME Monday

It's back by popular demand and the fact that MckMama has time now. Sweet Stellan is now home to the thawing tundra and the NMM show can now continue. Queen MckMama, yes she is royalty, is the mastermind behind this free therapy we all enjoy and actually makes my Monday enjoyable. To see more NMM posts, just click on the button above. Now onto the good stuff.

** I did not cry like a baby when my lesson plans disappeared on Friday morning. I then did not cry like a baby again on Sunday while watching Greys Anatomy.

** I did not have to leave the room when one of my fellow classmates asked a stupid question in class and got called on it. I was not laughing so hard either.
** I was not over the moon when MckMama said on her post Friday that NMM would be back today. Seriously...it takes more than FREE therapy to get me excited!

** I did not spend way too many hours exploring Picnik this weekend.

** I did not sleep 3hours in a 48hour period on Wed/Thurs night and then sleep 14hours on Friday night. Best darn sleep I have had in a LONG time!

** I did not miss my blog last week when I had the most hellacious week ever! Even though I had stuff to do and did not have time to post, it was still tough!
** I am not excited about my 400th post soon and the giveaway that will follow. Just hinting...more will come about the giveaway this week!
** I am not ready for this weeks' finals to be over with already.

** I have not been craving salty foods for the past week. I most certainly have not kept salty foods on hand either. Seriously...I am not feeding my cravings! Nope not me :)

** I am not over the moon about the fact that MckMama is back to NMM posts. I did not glow while writing this post either!
** I did not receive a text from my sister on Friday stating "dad and mike think you are dating a 30 year old." I responded with why and she said "that is why you are so happy all the time." Let me tell you right now that I am NOT DATING anyone at all. If they would have known... this past week was the most hellacious and I was not a happy camper at all, I think it would have changed their minds, right? I did not laugh so hard at this though! I think my dad and Mike (business associate) have LOST THEIR minds!
Hope you enjoyed this edition of NMM. I am so glad MckMama is back and her Free Therapy is as well. Have a fabulous Monday!!!!

Frick and Frack...I'll be back

I had to come up with a title and right now this will have to do. This coming week, April 26th through May 1st, will be the most hellacious week of the semester! I have five MASSIVE projects due during the week; two on Friday. I have three tests this week, one child study due, 3 portfolios due, several news articles to edit, and LOTS of homework to complete. This is my week already and it has not even started yet! Then to top it off, finals are the next week, April 4th through 7th!

I am letting you know this because my blog will be lacking in posts this week. But rest assured, I will be checking/commenting on a few blogs when I can :) I will still use twitter this week and my "tweets" are located on the right side of my blog underneath my "About me" section. If you feel the need to encourage or comment, please do so! I love all sweet and encouraging notes! I have also enabled the Email link on my "profile" if you feel the need to email me...go ahead! Hope you have a great week!

It's just a Wednesday

I had this really LONG post I was going to put up, but I accidentally deleted it or blogger did. So here is what I remember!

The library: a place where I spend 20+ hours a week in. Lately, the football boys have been there and have just given me a dose of comic relief that I need. I am so appreciative of those smiles, nods, and waves; more than they will ever know :) I also take the little girl I babysit there and we have a blast looking out the third floor windows at the boys, trees, birds, and so much more. M is a joy to work with!

Third floor Newsroom: For the past three days, the elevator has been broken; this means that I have to happily climb the three flights of stairs with arms full. I defiantly feel those 8+ times that I did this yesterday...today. I spend a bunch of time up there editing and it is, for the most part, peaceful!

Projects: I believe, really I do, that Elementary/Special Ed school needs to be renamed to project after project school. I am just above water right now and found out that I have THREE projects due next week with TWO on Friday, May 1st. Golly gee people! Finals are the week after that and then I have a weekend. After that I am in May-mester till May 29th. Looking at this right now seems like a bunch. But, as Mama Gen would say, CHIN UP! I am taking this advice too :)

Life in general: I am doing a neighborhood 5K on Saturday and a youth service project on Sunday. Plus homework, projects, and more uh projects!

I have been amazed at life's blessings around me and am extremely grateful for them all. Hope you are having a great Wednesday!

I know I will

This week has been an interesting crappy, sucky, and tiring to say the least. I have about 2.5 weeks until finals and projects/tests/stuff are piling up. I have also been asked several stinkin times a few times when I am not tired and I am responding with a few short and sweet phrases..."in the start of the semester" and "when I get more sleep than this." This week has been a little sticky but a smile was plastered across my face tonight.

After spending 4 hours in the math lab and four pages of homework completed, I just wanted to crawl up and sleep. But no...I was scheduled to tutor at 7! So from 7-9, I tutored and actually enjoyed watching the "boys" around me. Don't get any ideas...I would never date these guys; they are just my friends Half the football team was in the library tonight because they ALL have papers due tomorrow. So guess who got smiled, waved at, and encouraged today? I will give you a hint...she is 6 foot and looks like a raccoon. ME :) I got asked question after question, tutored my sweet tutoree, and had 2 sweet hours of feeling at PEACE. HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders...for two hours, I was able to chill and NOT worry/stress about school life.

Jeremiah 29:11 and Phil 4:13 have been on my heart all week long. I have been praying for relief and tonight, for those two hours, I got it. Yes it was small, but God does shine through in the midst of our cruddy moments. I have also read several other blogs that are having tough weeks too and I thought I would just "pour" my heart out. YES I KNOW life will get better after finals, but it is just EXTREMELY STRESSED right now. HE will shine through and I understand that too!

Yes this week has basically stunk, but I also know it DOES get better...I know from experiences :) Thank you for all of your sweet comments. I am trying, when able, to visit a few blogs for "free therapy" each day since it does help. Please do not comment and tell me it will get better...I know this...I am just being real! The days may be running together and LONG, but I KNOW I WILL get through!

Have to wrap this post up since it is midnight time sure did FLY by and I have to get up at 6AM! Enjoy the rest of your week. The weekend thank the LORD is just around the corner!

You know what...

**Update** You know the ITCHINESS that was bugging me tonight, well, I have stinkin chiggers on both legs...yahoo for me ;)**

It is one in the morning, no lectures please! I have tried my normal bedtime routine, showered, drank milk, and nothing I have no idea why seems to be working. I have taken my medicine, taken a little benedryl for allergies which are killing me by the way and nothing is working. I want to sleep! I am tired and wish I could just close my eyes and sleep, but no, I have insomnia and it has a MIND of it's OWN! You know what else, I have BAD allergies and they are becoming of the best with me right now...seriously! Red, itchy eyes ALL the time...ITCHY all over>>ALL THE time! When will the allergies end you ask, probably never! since they are YEAR Round GRR, GRR, GRR! Sorry to be a downer but this is REAL life now...

Note to self...and anyone who will read it :)

REMEMBER Not to get upset or frustrated before bed. If you do, you could have a side effect of insomnia! Please try to not get frustrated/upset at least an hour before bed, since you are now facing the consequences!!! [of the wireless Internet troubles]

So to recap, try to relax and get some sleep during the night! DO NOT GET mad/frustrated an hour before bed!

Now this is a new rule in my life :)

The Challenges of LIFE

So last night, I think I got a maximum of four hours of sleep. Today was filled with struggle after struggle and I made a very important decision that will impact my schedule for the rest of this semester. Today I quit working at a church that has been dear to my heart since I was a Freshman on day one. The reason I quit is simple. I do not have the time this semester as I am:
** Taking 19 credit hours
** Babysitting on T/Th mornings from 8:30-noonish
** The Managing Editor of the school newspaper
** An officer in Alpha Phi Omega (service fraternity)
** A tutor for a boy on campus (Bible, Govt, history)
** Needing some time...what is that? To myself!
** Yes it is a busy schedule but I need to stay busy**

This was a very difficult decision that I did not want to make but had to. For the sake of my school life and my sanity, this had to be done. I am upset but will hang in there. One of my professor's sparked this topic today as he stated to "dive into your courses." So I decided today to quit. This gives me some more time to do what I need to do and be happy about it. Please continue to pray for me to find a balance in my schedule and for me to do what God desires for me. Thanks in advanced.

I've never...

I've never been a night person...that is today's preface. I have always been an early riser and LOVE to go to bed early...not your average college student and I am ok with that :)

So I am at a National Convention till Wednesday night and was called at 12AM to say that the presentation that I was to be giving was to be at 8AM instead of 2PM. So what do I do? Unpack, get ready, shower, check email and try to turn in by 1AM. Oh no, but wait...my next door neighbors decided to throw a party. Not just a hotel gathering...a beer and karaoke singing at the top of the lungs from 1AM to 4AM party. Mind you that my alarm went off at 6ish. COME ON PEOPLE...can you just not sleep at a decent hour and party during the day? I got about 3 hours of sleep MAX and then called it quits.

My presentation went well and the other girl and I tagged teamed which went well. I have had one iced tea and a nice cup of coffee is in my future. I am sorry that I am venting/ranting, but seriously...this is a hotel people...not a keg party. Did your mother not teach you to use your inside voices and be considerate???

Hope you all are having a better Sunday and got a few more hours of sleep than I did. Please keep baby Stellan and his family in your prayers as well. I can not imagine what MckMama is going through! Visit her WEBSITE

Have a wonderful Sunday

Thanks and still doing fine with little sleep

Thank you to everyone who commented on the post before this one :) I have actually done quite well today. Yes I am tired, but right now I am still kickin' and still not happy about having to attend a 9pm meeting either. Rest assured that I will get some sleep tonight and even more on Wednesday night. You all rock my socks off...seriously with the sweet comments.

As for laying off the caffeine-I only drink coffee in the morning and have had a whole coffee pot before and slept fine that night. It is not still in my system :) And for laying off the caffeine, I actually do. I usually only drink water after 4pm.

Thanks for the thoughts and advice. I do read every comment and love reading "hearing" your opinions.

Have a great evening!!!!

Great...just Great

Today is another day and I am already exhausted. I did not get very much sleep at all last night. I do not understand why, but I can take a guess: maybe it was because I had to use the restroom every, yes every hour, or maybe it was because the people upstairs had their TV on LOUD, or maybe it was because I was thirsty a bunch last night. Whatever prevented me, I do not like it one bit.

Therefore, I gave up trying to sleep at 5, yes 5AM and am now doing homework. Uh...it will be a long day and I already know it. Wanna hear/read the best part? I have a meeting at 9pm that I MUST attend and can not get out of...can you say long day? I know this is not very fun to read and I am sorry. Wish I could be a little more entertaining today ;)

So maybe I can give you a little something other than a rant...here I go...I am adding a few things that happened last night while I was at work and a few things from the wee hours for my Not Me Monday addendum.

** A 3.5 girl did not slap her hand over my mouth because she did not want me to sing with her.
** I did not make my own cup of Chai tea at 3am.
** The 3.5 year old did not throw a pillow at me because she was mad.
** A 5.5 month old that I work with is not totally in love with a dog toy and will suck on it for ever. She is also not crawling at 5.5 months.
** I did not watch a few movies on TV during the wee hours because I could not sleep.

Today is another day and I am hoping for the best. Hope everyone had a better night sleep then I did.

Have a wonderful Tuesday!!!!

Sleepy Sunday...

I am admitting it to the world that I am tired. I have not been sleeping so well and have been under a little stress, no let me rephrase that, a bunch of stress. Allergies have also been in an uproar this week with the torrential winds too. So life is a little difficult right now. I did not realize how stressed/tired I was till this morning. On top of everything else, my back spasms are still killing me and I am in pain. I am doing everything I was told to, so I am hoping they will let up a little.

If you are wondering if the RAT is still in my apartment, my answer is YES!!! I have traps all over my apartment and I hear him at night, but he has not been caught yet and I am not naming him.

This week is not too hopeful for the stress letting up and I am not pleased. I have something due daily and LOTS due tomorrow. Maybe life will slow down a little soon. I need it too. Not Me Monday will be up tomorrow too :) I know some of you look foward to it.

Hope everyone is having a great Sunday!!!