Mixed emotions

I have to go back to collegetown in two days, Sunday, and I am kindof not as excited as I should be. I mean, I love where I go to school, but this summer is kindof different. My sister is also going away to her separate collegetown and it is kindof strange to me. I know she is nervous and I am nervous for her. It's weird for her and I to both be gone this fall. It's weird that my books, this semester, made my mouth drop! It's just different this semester and I am a bag of mixed emotions right now.

Sure I am excited for the new year, but I really can't explain my emotions right now. Leaving my "safe sanctuary" to go to collegetown is just a bit strange to me this year. This summer was beyond amazing and I KNOW I will miss my brother, parents, and little snuggle dog too. I know I need to go....but uh!!!

The funny thing is that this is my third year at college and I did not feel as nervous last year as this year. I know I really don't like transitions and I know I will be okay, but I am just a bag full of mixed emotions right now. Lovely I know!

If you would, please keep me in your thoughts & prayers as I make yet another transition to collegetown this year. I know I will be okay; it's just the thought(s) that count right now.

I see nothing wrong with that

** I may spell words wrong, use spell check religiously, and talk my thoughts out...but I see nothing wrong with that!

** I may have to fabric soften all my clothes to make them "soft," read up side down, and have my letters move around the page...but I see nothing wrong with that.

** I may only eat certain foods due to texture/taste, smell my fingers to calm down, or be unable to walk on the balance beam...but I see nothing wrong with that.

** I may loose track of time, have to study 3x as hard as the other college student, or sleep much less...but I see nothing wrong with that.

** I may become frustrated and vent, rant, or gripe, but I see nothing wrong with that.

** I may have Dyslexia, Dysgraphia, Sensory Processing Disorder, Food Allergies, and other issues...but I see nothing wrong with that.

** I may have issues, but I see nothing wrong with that. Everyone has issues!

You may be wondering my point to this whole post and it is simple! I see nothing wrong the way HE made me. Sure I may struggle a little to learn or to understand concepts, but I see nothing wrong with that!

Psalm 139:13-16 states "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

I see nothing wrong with the way HE created me! HIS works are WONDERFUL and MIGHTY!

Being spontaneous

I've noticed a trend lately, I seem to become a debby downer by the end of the week since school/life seems to speed up and get rough. Yes I still blog, but actually have had no motivation to post lately. I am tired and wiped when I get home, so imagine trying to do homework, laundry, cleaning, cooking, checking emails, and blogging while sleepy. Mind you, I did not sleep well at all last night because I decided to change my dull weekend this weekend.

This weekend, my friend and I are driving to Lampasas and being spontaneous. We both have a required event on Saturday morning, but around 2ish tomorrow, we are hitting the road. Destination: no phone service, no Internet, just peace and quiet plus being able to see my mom, dad, brother, brother's friend, sister, and sister's friend as a plus.

My dad and his company have several hundred acres of land (where they hunt as well) and everyone is heading up there this weekend. They are already there and looking forward to my friend's and mine's arrival. I am hoping it is just a 2.5-3 hour drive. My friend will be my direction helper since I have never gone from collegetown to Lampasas before. Yes I have been from my house, but it is different...me driving and no parents to direct. So if you think of me tomorrow, pray for safe travel and direction. I have an idea and map to where I am going, but it is just different w/o the parentals there.

Dad and I had a conversation last night too and he asked why I was driving 3 hours there for just about 20 hours, then driving back and starting another week off. My words exactly..."I need a vacation and this is the only one I can get for another month." I need this little retreat. Yes, it's only for a couple of hours, but it is something. He may not understand, but I am so excited for this. I promise to take LOTS of pictures and relax just a wee bit.

As for the homework front, I am taking some with me and am hoping to type up stuff that is due Monday. Oh and did I forget to mention that I am teaching 15 home school kiddos PE for 45 minutes Monday...well I am. So I am hoping to get my lesson plans and activities done ASAP too.

Hope you all have a great weekend. Relax a little and enjoy time off :) I will be back on Monday to do the Not Me Monday and do I have LOTS to report too. Enjoy the sweet weekend folks!!!

Have a wonderful weekend!!!!

Summer School starts...today

Last night I received 2 emails from my Summer I professor saying that Summer I could begin when ever we wanted it to. Granted, I thought it would start on Monday, June 2nd, when it was supposed to, but no. Today, I spent FIVE hours on one chapter for Critical Thinking. I have to take this class to get into the School of Education this fall. So the best time to take this is this summer. I also found out that I will have to spend a few days in Abilene for the next month (6/9, 6/16, 6/24*, and 7/3). As for the 24th, I have a conflict and I am hoping that I can move my test, but I will see.

So my life has gotten a bit busier than yesterday and will continue to stay busy this month, but I am up for the challenge. I also start babysitting again tomorrow for a family who uses me regularly, so I am so excited.

This week, I have LOTS to do, but I am just glad that I am home!! This coming weekend, we have a family graduation and wedding, come home on Sunday night, and I will drive to Abilene on Monday morning to take a test. My plan is then to come back home, but I may make a few stops before I head home;)

Yes, my life has gotten busier, but I would not have it any other way!

Have an awesome week!!!