Torn with frustration

Today has just not been a good day. One professor told me that my homemade book was a "good try but then to look at my friend's and how perfect it was." Then today I was slammed with another comment that I am not sure how to take. So I am telling you and still processing it.

After my exam, for another class, my disabilities coordinator told me that my professor suggested that I take my tests in his class instead of a separate room. I have a semi-college IEP that allows me to have accommodations in time and place where I take my test. I talk to myself and would be a distraction to others. I told my disabilities person that it would not go over well since I would be a distraction to others and would make my test grade would be not too hot. I was told, by my disabilities coordinator, to tell my professor that. I mention that I study all.the.time and my grades show that. He commented that my professor had said something about my high grades to him.

I am torn since I study like a crazy person. I do not cheat yet study on a daily basis. My grades are high because I try my best and give 100% most of the time. My grades are high because I am a perfectionist. My grades are HIGH because I try my hardest.

I am upset that the professor thinks my grades are suspicious. I may have Dyslexia, Dysgraphia, and a other issues-but does that mean I can't get high grades? I am just torn on what to think.

I am torn and just don't like it!!

Mixed emotions

I have to go back to collegetown in two days, Sunday, and I am kindof not as excited as I should be. I mean, I love where I go to school, but this summer is kindof different. My sister is also going away to her separate collegetown and it is kindof strange to me. I know she is nervous and I am nervous for her. It's weird for her and I to both be gone this fall. It's weird that my books, this semester, made my mouth drop! It's just different this semester and I am a bag of mixed emotions right now.

Sure I am excited for the new year, but I really can't explain my emotions right now. Leaving my "safe sanctuary" to go to collegetown is just a bit strange to me this year. This summer was beyond amazing and I KNOW I will miss my brother, parents, and little snuggle dog too. I know I need to go....but uh!!!

The funny thing is that this is my third year at college and I did not feel as nervous last year as this year. I know I really don't like transitions and I know I will be okay, but I am just a bag full of mixed emotions right now. Lovely I know!

If you would, please keep me in your thoughts & prayers as I make yet another transition to collegetown this year. I know I will be okay; it's just the thought(s) that count right now.