Hit the road

Life has been crazy this summer. Between my brother and dad's schedules and the constant life stuff, we haven't had many opportunities to get out of town. So my family and are hit the road for a few days.

Regular posting will continue on Monday.

It's HOT outside

I was going to do a week in numbers post but that will have to wait until next week. Living in Texas, I expect it to be HOT but when the weather man says that it hasn't been this HOT since 1980, you know it's bad. We have had 16 consecutive days above 100* lately and it reached 106* plus more this week. Usually Texas has some really HOT days but it kind of fizzles out and we get some below 100* temperatures. Not this year. No rain in sight either.

I do have to say I am happy to report that people are not leaving their kiddos in the car and I hear about it on the news this year.

Back to the HOTness this year. It's HOT (did I mention that?) plus the air quality stinks and it humid. It's just not a fun atmosphere. So there has been a lot of indoor activities and exercise. I can tell you I dread walking outside by 11am since we are usually in the upper 90*s and it is miserable already.

I'm ready for the cooler temps. How about you?

Sensitively me

I am a sensitive person and through the years, I've learned to sugar-coat things WELL and please people. I'm not always been proud of that though. Learning to accept reality and who people truly are is difficult. I've learned not to sugar coat things with my online and select friends. I am real on Twitter and speak the truth. But in real life, I get judged by the way I talk or the way I am. I have a hard time breaking out of that scared shell to meet what's in store in my daily {real} life.

Case in point, my sister and I have a great LONG distance relationship. BUT when she returns home, all heck breaks loose. It's like I'm her punching bag (metaphorically) and she thinks she can cuss me out and talk to me the way she does. I do not appreciate that. I said that yesterday and she said a few choice words. That really hurts as I try to make our relationship better but it comes back to bite me. I've told her I don't appreciate that and that I deserve to be talked to nicer. She thinks otherwise. I don't understand how she doesn't talk to anyone else that way but ME. I am so, so tired of it though. It's like she's angry at the world and I get the beating for it.

I, by nature, am a happy/bubbly person and a morning person. I say good morning and get told "don't talk to me." Okay, I've learned to wait a few hours but let me be clear on something. I WILL NOT CHANGE my demeanor just because you are bitter and mean. Not happening. I am tired of walking on egg shells with you and being cussed out. I am tired of being beaten down by words.

Motherly figure-so I've been told, I'm a teacher and loving figure by heart. I can't change that. That's who I am. I really do try not to "baby" my siblings or talk down to them. They think I am...I am not. But, come on, please stop judging the way I talk to you on how you will treat me.

Bottom line...I am so tired of being the punching bag and getting ragged on for who I am. Sugar coating may work in real life but I'm tired of hiding and not being myself.

So this is me trying to find the online real person, who speaks the truth, and using that IRL. I can guarantee it will not be easy. But I am tired of hiding from the real world and from my smack-talking sister.